things are gonna blind me

I’m sitting in my room sweating because I don’t feel like having my electric bill go up by running my a/c, and because I have a neck warmer/massager thing on because I was getting a headache. This car accident totally screwed me up, and I think I’m going to have intensely painful stress headaches for the rest of my life because my neck is permanently messed up. It’s kind of like how I’m never, ever going to lift more than about twenty pounds ever again because my elbow is stupid. I’m perpetually falling apart. Clearly I’m allergic to college.

Two weeks from today, I will be in Montevideo. I have so many plans and people to meet and places I want to go and so much Spanish to speak. I just also want to do a lot of writing and reading while I’m there, so somehow I have to fit in being incredibly social and adventurous with being a complete hermit nerd. We’ll see how that works.

I bought furniture today from friends for my new house that I’m not sure I have. I have way too much to do in the next two weeks. I should not be on the Internet.

those things with lots of pieces of paper bound together…

This is somewhat embarrassing.

I just counted the unread books in my room, like ones I own but have not yet picked up, and if I counted correctly, it’s about 57.

In my defense, I own many, many, many more books than that, so it’s not like I haven’t read anything. I just don’t read enough to keep up with my habit of buying books or with my habit of wanting to read books. I’m trying to catch up with classics that I never read, but I’m also trying to keep abreast of what’s going on in contemporary literature, both in YA (I try really hard to believe in the genre, though it’s hard, and I think calling it a genre is sort of stupid) and adult fiction. And then I also try to keep up with authors I like by reading more of their books, which is a sort of bad thing to do when you’re trying to read a lot of stuff. It sucks to find an author you like and can’t get enough of. :-p Then, the other thing I try and do is increase my exposure to different types of writing to work on my craft. So I need to read more short stories, because I’m terrible at those, and I like to read poetry, but it takes really long to finish just one book and feel like you’ve gotten anything significant out of it.

As if that number above isn’t bad enough, my to-read list (you can click on that link on the right that says “my bookshelf”) totals 182*. And it only gets higher every time I finish a book.

This semester burned me out so much, I can no longer remember how to just kick back with a book and read for a really long period of time. And I don’t remember how long it takes me to finish one. But I’m going to venture a guess, and I’m going to challenge myself to finish at least 30 books this summer. I have an abridged list taken from the 57 and the 182 of the ones most important to me to read now rather than later. This includes books that are being made into movies (Youth In Revolt), books by people I know and/or who have taught me in writing workshops (Not A Matter of Love, The Narrow Road Into the Interior), books that were gifts (La Hojarasca), classics/famous books (Oliver Twist, Balthazar, de Sade’s Justine), and books by Tucsonans (Sleeping With Schubert, History Lesson for Girls). So it’s a quite daunting task, but I’m excited. I will take books with me everywhere: to the science class I have to take starting on Monday, to Uruguay, to haircuts, to work, to the rec center, to my parents’ house. Reading has to be the main event for the summer, trumping friends and movies and mooning about boys who don’t like me back. It will even take precedence over writing, I think, just a little. There’s only so much honing of a craft you can do if you don’t read, and I am so, so behind in my reading. I’ve missed it so much.

I’ll take some book recommendations, if you have them, but please look and see if they’re already on my list, and only make them if they’re going to change my life. If you know me well, you know that very small, random things can change my life, but still. Recommendations with a grain of salt. And be advised that I may not be able to get to them for a long time, but they’ll go on my goodreads, and since the Internet never dies, I’ll never forget that I’m going to read them.

I’ll be blogging about my reading. And my travels. Please read. Or tell someone else to. I get lonely when I don’t feel encouraged. :-p

This starts now. Because as of about an hour and a half ago, this semester left my hands. Done. Time for grades.

*And then I remembered my Amazon wishlist, and I added all the books there to my to-read list as well. 200. Hooray!