Category Archives: books

bloggish resolutions

This year I made myself some non-specific, qualitative-rather-than-quantitative resolutions that will probably become clear as I continue blogging. But as far as this blog is concerned, I plan to focus it more and have more consistent “columns” and themes. I’ll continue doing my informal research updates on biracial literature, but I’ll also be using that reading for actual academic research that I hope to present at a conference or two and then turn into a paper. I’ll write here more consistently, but not at the expense of the stuff I should be writing–namely school stuff and the novel(s). Finally, I’ll keep better track of my reading not just numerically but qualitatively, writing more, privately and publicly, about what I’m reading, why I chose to read it, what it’s meaning to me, and how it relates to my schooling, my creative projects, my intellectual pursuits, or just my general enjoyment/interest. Like Nick Hornby did in The Believer, I also want to keep track monthly of books I buy, books I borrow/check out from the library, and books I read, as well as magazines and journal articles that I read, and do a beginning and end of month roundup of those things.

Also, more extra media stuff. I’m trying to remember how to have a vocabulary for discussing music, another important part of my life, in the same way I discuss literature. Should be interesting, not to mention relevant to one of my novel(s).

BUT, since it’s always fun to be a little quantitative when you can rub your awesomeness in other people’s faces, I did decide to make an infographic of what I read this year. Continue reading

new worlds: cinder, worldbuilding, and current ya sci fi

I want to talk about worldbuilding in sci fi and dystopia. And just the qualities of sci fi itself. Lately it’s my favorite genre of television, but I can’t quite figure out why. It’s pretty elementary to identify social fears and how they transfer into imagined technological advances, but that’s part of what makes it such an ever-relevant genre. There are always new societal fears and scapegoats and advances and changes that lend themselves well to commentary in the form of fantastical re-imaginings. But when too much sci fi or dystopia comes out during the same era, especially when that era is also characterized by fast, serial publishing, hyper-commodification of literature, and technology-dominated culture, it ends up all the same and ends up being derivative of itself, rather than clever or astute.

I know I’m kind of writing my own dystopia right now, but I’m satisfied that it’s more speculative than outright sci fi dystopia, and I think it’s fairly different from a lot of other YA dystopia. That doesn’t mean it’s going to be better, but we’ll see how it goes when it’s done. But in the meantime, I still want to read in my one of my favorite genres, and I get disappointed when it all starts to be the same old story: society controls teens as far as who they marry, and some plucky young girl decides that that’s not right. Touchscreens run everything, people have silly names, and daily life is controlled by a faceless, totalitarian government. Obviously that’s the hallmark of most sci fi because it’s the fear of most societies, but the plots are starting to run so similar that it’s dull as doornails. Not even the execution of the same old ideas is unique anymore. Continue reading

biracial literature #4: not making racial identity the whole story

The Whole Story of Half a Girl (Veera Hiranandani) is one of the better titles for these books, I think. Especially for a middle grade novel. This novel focuses on the life of Sonia Nadhamuni, a sixth grader who is half Indian and half Jewish, and whose father has just lost his job, forcing her and her sister to leave their private community school for regular public school. Like in any good middle school story, Sonia has to navigate the shark-infested waters of popularity, friendship, and academics, and she of course makes iffy choices along the way. She joins a cheerleading team, has to decide whether to sit with the black girl who likes books and writing like her or sit with the popular kids who exoticize her, and has to deal with being the formerly rich girl who now goes to public school. Continue reading

i’m inspired!

I read a lot of books, period, and lately I read a lot of food books. So I don’t think I’m being too cavalier when I say that this is the BEST food book I’ve read all year. The Kitchen Counter Cooking School (Kathleen Flinn) is a memoir cum cookbook that is just like taking cooking lessons without paying the exorbitant fees, and without being the awkward, food allergy-challenged person in the room.

I do not lie. First of all, Flinn is just really good at putting together a narrative, so the book is highly readable. That’s why it functions so well as a lesson, too–she’s a good teacher, well trained, who knows how to put together a lesson so that it’s engaging and understandable. The book follows her and her friend as they find nine women (not all female on purpose, but interesting sociologically nonetheless) and take it upon themselves to teach them to cook. And so they do, focusing each lesson on things that real people actually want to eat, are capable of cooking, and can afford to eat regularly, such as chicken and bread. Turning each lesson into a narrative chapter, Flinn offers you a lesson, too, not to mention teaches you things about the US food system, the economics of cooking and buying groceries, and tricks to understanding how to use spices and herbs. I now understand that “flavor profile” isn’t just a pretentious chef word but also something that will make my own cooking more interesting and more cohesive. Continue reading

how and why i shelve

I shelve my books; I don’t just put them on shelves. And I know that I’m somewhat unique among even scholars and book lovers, because I have seen plenty of English professors, avid reader friends, and writers who are happy with their disorganized bookshelves. But my books are organized, which I think speaks to my natural affinity towards librarianship and also to my bibliophilia.

The two big wooden shelves are fiction. All fiction, no matter whom it was written for, whether it’s speculative, realist, surrealist, science, fantasy. If it’s a story that was made up, it’s here. I love stories, and this is obviously the biggest part of my collection. I don’t distinguish between subgenres or audience because I think that tends to demean them, and there is merit in all types of fiction. It all just goes on these shelves, alphabetically according to last name. The shelves you can’t see because they are blocked by the chaise are filled with old magazines, piano and choral music, and tons of binders of my own writing, literary magazines, and photocopies of readings I’ve done for class, workshops, and more. Continue reading

maybe this year a haul-iday?

Chronicle Books, that awesome publisher from San Francisco, is once again having a Happy Haul-idays giveaway, where you pick up to $500 worth of books from them you’d like, blog about them, and then hopefully win them. Someone who comments on your post will win them as well.

This year, they’ve added something even more awesome to the prize, which is another $500 worth of books, this time to the charity of your choice. It’s hard to decide who I would want to get $500 of awesomeness, because so many organizations could use it, but I think I would have to go with the Tucson High School Library. I didn’t go to THS, but I did participate in multiple summer programs there when I was in elementary and middle school, and now my father is a teacher there. All last year, after he informed me that they couldn’t afford to buy any new books AT ALL for the library, I started taking my magazines and ARCs and other discards from my personal library (which, if you know me, is a lot, given my many subscriptions, the book reviews I write, and my terribly expensive habit of buying lots of books) there, rather than to the used bookstore. I just sent some materials to THS c/o my dad from the AASL conference, and I would love it if they could get some new books, too. I think it’s especially important now, given Tucson Unified School District’s precarious position in the Arizona political climate, that THS be given the chance to buy really good materials for their students, since their really good classes are being illegally declared illegal. What’s more, since THS is an arts magnet, Chronicle’s great list of art and media books would be excellent as support for the curriculum and the individual needs of the students.

THS will get to choose their own books, but here’s what I would do with $500 from Chronicle. Continue reading

a fish can love a bird

The first thing I thought when I read the blurb for Jaclyn Dolamore’s Between the Sea and Sky was that proverb, “A fish can love a bird, but where would they build their house?” And I’m willing to bet that at some point, it was on Dolamore’s mind as well.

So my friend Zoraida’s upcoming mermaid book has made me rediscover my love for mermaids, and lately I’m insatiable, but I’m also a bit bored by retellings of the Hans Christian Andersen tale. So I’m happy to say that Between the Sea and Sky is mermaidy and interesting the way Sarah Porter’s Lost Voices was, not boring and predictable. The basic plot: Esmerine has just been inducted, if you will, into the circle of sirens, who are mermaids who are drawn to the surface and who work to sing down ships not because they’re cruel harlots, but because it creates balance–fishermen who over-fish the seas get sung down. Esmerine’s sister, Dosia, is already a siren, but soon after Esmerine becomes one, Dosia disappears, and Esmerine realizes that Dosia must have been kidnapped by a human (because here’s the thing: mermaids can choose to have legs and appear human whenever they feel like it, but every step they take will be painful unless they give up their siren belt to the man they love–but then, also, they’re stuck being human without a method for transformation because the human will hold on to the belt) to be his wife. She decides to venture into the surface world and enlist the help of her childhood friend Alander, who is a member of another hybrid human species, the Fandarsee (human with wings). Adventure and journey tale telling ensue. Alander turns out to have grown into a bookshop salesman who reminds me of the waitstaff at the Grill and the cashiers at Bookman’s–total intellectual snob, probably a hipster, probably a stoner, and when he insults your intelligence it feels at once like a compliment, a challenge, and a jab. And Esmerine is the jugend of the bildungsroman, trying to figure out which world she belongs in. Continue reading

biracial literature #3: the finding-identity-by-going-on-a-literal-journey trope

I’m heading back into the realm of biracial literature again, after reading some other stuff for awhile, both because it continues to interest me and because I’m now about 90% certain that I am going to spend my summer researching this to the point of being able to write, and hopefully publish, a scholarly paper on the “genre.” So this, and other books I already wrote about, is something I may go back and look at over the summer.

This is a new YA book called Black, White, Other: In Search of Nina Armstrong by Joan Steinau Lester. I would throw it more on the lower end of YA, for its language, treatment, and plot. Most simply, it’s about a 15-year-old biracial girl, Nina, in Northern California whose black father and white mother are separating. Her father is going on a sort of back-to-Africa kick, and Nina is beginning to become cognizant not only of racial difference itself, but also her privilege, assumptions, and appearance when she rides the bus through the black section of town to get to her father’s apartment, when she finds herself angry at her mother for trying to relate to Nina’s feeling of ostracization and discrimination, and when she begins to branch out from her white group of friends but then realizes that everyone expects her to choose either the white group or the black group. At the same time, there is a parallel story through the frame of a novel-in-progress written by Nina’s father about his great grandmother, Sarah, who escaped slavery. Nina begins to identify strongly with Sarah’s journey and struggles, and there’s an inkling that Sarah might actually be biracial, too, so we get the parallels with being biracial and told to choose, and being biracial by way of being the product of master-slave rape. Nina becomes totally overcome with feelings of guilt (it’s hard when you’re friends with people whose ancestors were slaves with your ancestors but also you’re friends with people who owned people like, again, your ancestors might have, etc. etc.) and confusion, and that is coupled with trying to comprehend the result of the Oakland fires and the portrayals of looters by the media.

I guess I’m a bit early when I call this a trope in biracial narratives, but it’s certainly a YA trope: Continue reading

kindling

I own a Kindle now. It absolutely killed me to press that Purchase button on Amazon, but I had to do it. I have textbooks, I have novels, and I have tons and tons of pdfs to read for school, and I just couldn’t handle doing it all on my computer anymore. My eyes were killing me, and until this afternoon when I deleted a lot of old music, I literally had my computer telling me constantly that I had no disk space and needed to delete items. So I just cannot afford to keep all my school readings, but obviously I need them.

There’s also the problem of reading on the bus/train. Yes, I can read novels on the train. And if I’m sitting, I can maybe even read a textbook, though that starts to hurt my hands. But I can’t read my computer on the train, I don’t have a printer, and I don’t like the idea of printing 200 pages a week. That’s just ridiculous. So I decided I would buy a Kindle for school, and probably I will get rid of it when I graduate.

Except then I remembered the whole free ebooks from before 1923 thing. And I actually found quite a few books that were already on my to-read list that I just hadn’t purchased yet, or that are really hard to find, period (Utopia and Portrait of a Lady would be the former, and The Little White Bird the latter). So now I have a decent Kindle library, and I’ve only owned it for 24 hours. Now I just have to get a case for it, cause wow, it does not weigh enough to remind me that it cost $140. But then I’ll be good to go! And I might have also downloaded a word game. Just for, like, airplanes.

Conveniently the Kindle has both 3G (I finally know what that means!) and WiFi, so I can sort of rectify my problem that I’ve developed since moving to Boston. I have never, ever cared about having a smart phone, and I still don’t particularly want one. But living in a new city with a preposterously unreliable and unpredictable public transportation system, and simply being a newb and not knowing the streets, the whole having Internet thing will come in handy if I find myself lost with nothing but my CharlieCard and my Kindle.

Still, it hurts me. I can’t believe I own a Kindle. (I also can’t believe how magical the screen is–I feel like I’m poring over Ella’s magic book in Ella Enchanted.) I feel like this is a betrayal as a future librarian and as a future novelist. I still own hundreds of books, and they’re not going anywhere. I’m still acquiring more books. But I think this will be a helpful educational tool. Just hopefully not much more than that.

in which i find my

Wished-for mentor? Hero? Creative and intellectual idol? Spiritual mother?

I just finished Alice Walker’s In Search of Our Mother’s Gardens, her first collection of essays, mostly from the seventies. It struck me in so many ways that I can only begin to enumerate here, but I’ll try, because I think she deserves it, and so do I.

First, people have been telling me that I’m black (or that I’m half black) my whole life, and I did plenty of my own searching and researching and reading. I read and watched the requisite books and movies about slavery and Selma; I had the biographical sketches of women I was supposed to be inspired by; I never denied that black was part of what I was. But this book made me realize that I’ve never fully comprehended what the Civil Rights movement did or meant, and how it influenced creativity, politics, and culture in the years and decades after it. Of course I’m not an expert now, but many of the essays in this book dealt directly with the movement very soon after it happened, which I thought was interesting and enlightening. I think it will help me, as other experiences in the past four years have, find a way to incorporate a black or African American identity into my already complicated self, and to see where I fit in in that community. Just as spending Thanksgiving with my birthfamily (a matriarchal, all-female, close-knit group of well-read, educated, religious, musical; strong-willed group of black women) let new roots spring out from under me, this book has given me validation in the ways I like to be creative, and it has made me see again the value in searching for background and reflecting on the now.

I also appreciated that this collection was not so tight, at times academic, at times journalistic, at times diary-like, at times just good old creative non-fiction. Without knowing it, I think Alice Walker is who I have been trying to be all this time, who I can most closely tie my creative endeavors and aspirations to. Though I’ve only read her The Color Purple before this, I can tell I will be reading more of her, and I’m glad that I went through this collection of essays before reading more of her novels, if only because I feel now that I understand and appreciate her, and this makes me curious to read the things her mind has created. The essays in this collection make personal connections to literature and literary figures she has read, researched, and loved, just as in this blog and in much of my non-fiction writing I have found that the books I love most are those that allow me to make applications to my personal life. I appreciate many books for their literary quality, for their worthiness of being a part of a canon of American literature, for the potential they have for academic study and discussion. But those are books I respect more than love. This book, this Alice Walker, I loved.

To Zora Neale Hurston I gave her due: I studied her for a year in high school and revisited her last summer while I was studying at Rutgers. I read a biography of her this past year, and perhaps someday I will pick up her folktales or autobiography when I have time. To Toni Morrison I afford the utmost respect, but she is not someone I can hope to emulate or even delve deeply into as both a scholar and a human. She is too advanced for me to find connections, though I do greatly enjoy her work. Nikki Giovanni I always enjoy reading, but since I am not foremost a poet, we are not exactly kindred spirits. But in Walker’s collection, I (cliche, I know) found a garden–I found someone else who loves scholarship as much as creativity; who sometimes has a volatile temper; who struggles with which of her minority identities she should identify with; who loves to read; who loves to write; who loves to live. I think I’ve just found a fountain of inspiration.