I’ve been way too swamped to blog, and I still am, but I want to blog and write all of the things and read all the things! Obviously I have not done my usual monthly roundup, and that’s going to have to change, as I’ve been reading TONS of picturebooks and the list will just be too long and cumbersome. So I think I’ll start just giving highlights of the stuff I think is really worthwhile.
This is because I now have a job that I can’t talk about that is everybody’s dream job – reading books and getting paid for it. And I don’t want to complain about it because I know it is truly a gift of a job. I’m also reading for an award committee I can’t talk about and also reading for The Horn Book, so that’s a lot of reading. And I have my fitness job and my new nonprofit job and the freelance writing, and I’m trying to finish my novel, so basically I’m swamped, but that’s also helping me be more productive overall.
Discipline when working mostly from home is really difficult to learn, but I’m slowly getting better at my time management and all.
I’m also officially matriculating in a PhD program this fall! And not currently anticipating quitting any of my jobs! Hahahahahahahaha that’s going to be hilarious. Stay tuned for my misadventures.
Anyway, will be back to normal soon, I promise!
Books Bought This Month
Books Received/Acquired This Month
Tell the Wind and Fire by Sarah Rees Brennan (ARC) [IndieBound]
Lily’s New Home by Paula Yoo (Edelweiss ARC) [IndieBound]
Sleeping Embers of an Ordinary Mind by Anne Charnock (Kindle First) [IndieBound]
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I desperately miss writing here, and I log in all the time, look around, write down notes for posts, and then go away.
Here’s the thing: I am trying to be good to myself and good about myself, meaning that I am trying to treat myself well and trying to be thoughtful with how I present myself and to only write here when I feel like I have something to say. Full, thought-out ideas. And I haven’t had the energy to think things out because I’m still recovering from the depression I was in over the summer, and because work has been mentally and emotionally draining, and because I’m trying to develop new habits.
I really, really want to be writing. I’ve been writing a lot more, but not the kind of a lot I need to if I want to legitimately call myself a writer. I don’t like that, but because I have other things to take care of, like working enough to pay my bills and trying to stay healthy, I’m not able to make it a priority. I know lots of authors have jobs and kids and lives, and I only really have the first, and yet they make it work, and that’s great for them. Right now, I’m just not able.
But I’m making it a goal. I’ve read, and probably you have, too, that it takes something like two months to develop a habit. Right? Probably Self magazine told me that. At any rate, that doesn’t seem far off. It didn’t take long after I moved to Silicon Valley and started working at an institution that is powered by Google Apps for me to construct my life entirely around my Google Calendar. If you force them, habits happen. But I can’t put “writing” in my calendar on a daily basis yet. Not just yet. Continue reading